The Narrow road – A Journey

(Note: Changes are made to the post, thanks to my friends for giving me proper guidance in understanding what was wrong in the post)

All of us have a dark side to our life’s. They continue producing guilt to the extent of mental death. And the issue cannot be discussed, nor you know how you could find a solution. I am not scared of telling the world that yes even I have a bad truth which has nearly killed my senses for the last 2 and half years. A truth which I could not share with anybody.

Many a people do not acknowledge the power of confession, because of their upbringing or could be many other reasons. The thought of having to talk to a person (priest) who is unknown to us.

God helped me understand that today. Priests are blessed with impeccable wisdom to counsel and forgive. Well ofcourse, this wisdom flows from God and when they act on behalf of God. Jesus after his resurrection gave his first priests the power to forgive sins. And through the ages and by laying of hands this power has been transferred to the priests till today. And as it was God’s plan for the forgiveness of sins to reach us through them, the satisfaction you get once you realize that the battle is over is amazing.

I had a rather unusual confession today. As soon as I took the sign of the cross, tears rolled down my eyes. I was crying . The priest stopped me at this and told me to calm down because there is nothing which Jesus cannot forgive. So I asked him, if he means ‘any’ sin. He asked me to look at the cross holding the risen lord with open hands. And told me to concentrate on him, and what is it that cannot go into those hands. The priest said, “when the time one realizes the wrongdoings and try’s to turn to God’s mercy, there is nothing through Jesus that can avoid the mercy flowing to us.” He was right. I started feeling sudden calmness. The priest didn’t want to know what my sins were. He said “God knows. I’l just pray the prayer of absolution so that the forgiveness is complete.” He just wanted me to look at the cross after confession. And before leaving from there I just asked him to pray for me.

All through these years, I was struggling. Trying to understand how and when I can get rid of the hurt. Even if its through confession, how could I talk about it to the priest. Jesus made it easier for me when I decided to confess. Through the priest, he did not even ask me what my sins were but just forgave me. God is the actual forgiver not the priest.

Our God speaks to us through our priests. Thank you father.

Evu